Happy birthday to mrieshka (Meenu) and FiestySoul – May you days and years be filled with joy!

 

Varanasi 2005

“I can’t do it.”

Arjun looked up to see AV-Sir throw his backpack on to the wooden bench and slide into the seat across from him. “What?”

AV-Sir stared at him mutely for a second and then turned around to wave to a canteen-helper who looked at him and nodded with a huge grin before heading back to the kitchen behind the counter, presumably to get AV-Sir his favorite chai.

“Oh, the date song?”                                           

AV-Sir made a face and looked away, smiling at those who were calling out to him and yelling unintelligible phrases from all corners of the canteen. If AV-Sir was the King of IE-V, the canteen was his royal court. And Arjun never tired of seeing him in these surroundings. It always made him wonder what it would take to be this – this hero – someday. And with such dignity and poise. Of course, he knew that he was popular too – arrogantly so – and he enjoyed the admiration and the crowds around him. But what AV-Sir had – was different. There was reverence. Even amongst his peers – like Prashant Tiwari – the man hadn’t dared to repeat what he had a few days ago – with him or with Kavi – especially with Kavi. What would it take, Arjun wondered, to be respected as AV-Sir was?

“Hello, Agarwal-Sir.”

He blinked and looked at AV-Sir who was staring at him intently, none of the lightness in his words, evident in his face.

“I was just thinking about the venue…” He began tentatively.

AV-Sir shook his head. “You aren’t listening. I am not going to do this stupid song thing. The more I think about it, the worse it is. You just have to go tell her how you feel. Or use audio cassettes, I don’t care.”

“Audio cassettes are impersonal. And I don’t need Sonu Nigam when I have you!”

“Sonu Nigam? Really? Did I not mention flattery will get you nowhere?”

“I wasn’t flattering you, Sir. I just said Sonu Nigam given he is Kavi’s favorite. I think she even has a crush on him.”

AV-Sir rolled his eyes. “I thought she only had serious crushes?”

Arjun grinned. “True.” Then he stopped fooling around and took a deep breath. “Sir, I know it sounds stupid to you. And honestly, I have been questioning this line of action too. But I don’t know any other way. I want her to take me seriously.”

“Having me sing in the background is the way to do that?”

“Why not? She likes your voice. She even likes you,” He raised his hands in defense when AV-Sir opened his mouth to interrupt him. “I mean in a you-are-a-rockstar-senior-way. And she knows I think highly of you – so she will see why I asked for your help. And you – you are doing a good deed.” He finished softly. “Unless….”He looked at AV-Sir’s face intently. “Unless, it makes you uncomfortable singing for her.” There it was again – the sliver of doubt that seemed to wax and wane with lunatic precision.

“I don’t know how else to tell you that I have no feelings for your Kavi, Arjun – If that’s what you are asking. One can be uncomfortable being a playback singer for the hero without feeling romantically for the heroine.”

Arjun burst out laughing at AV-Sir’s choice of words. In less than two minutes, AV-Sir was smiling ruefully too, the sharp sting in his voice disappearing as he averred Arjun’s incorribility and pitied the woman he was going to end-up with.

“Kavi, I hope,” Arjun interjected and smiled at his senior even as his mind conjured up images of his best friend. When had she come to matter so much to him? It was almost as if acknowledging his feelings for her to AV-Sir had cemented whatever little doubt there had been before. And now, all he wanted to do was… “If I could sing as well as you, I would pick all the Udit Narayan and Sonu Nigam songs she loves and sing them till she had no choice but to fall in love with me.”

“Goodness, Agarwal. Filmy I knew. A romantic filmy…the shayar type…I would not have guessed.”

Arjun grinned at his senior. “If romance isn’t filmy, what else can it be? I wouldn’t enjoy being any other type of romantic, would I? Would you?”

AV-Sir looked at him quietly for the longest time. He drained his chai and ordered another but didn’t peel his gaze off of Arjun’s face. Just when Arjun was about jokingly warn AV-Sir against falling in love with him, the older boy spoke, his voice indulgent and strangely yearning. “We can still do that.”

Arjun’s brows narrowed as his brain raced against ticking seconds to process what AV-Sir was suggesting.

“You are not….not suggesting….After-Aarohan?”

AV-Sir took a deep breath. “I guess I am. I mean if you really want me to sing…then let’s get it done with Aarohan. And you can tell her at the end of the evening. If anything, this will be…my thank you to her…for agreeing to sing with me.”

Arjun waited to see if AV-Sir was infact joking about the whole thing. When he didn’t roll his eyes or burst out laughing even several minutes later, Arjun grinned and held out his hand. “Deal!” he called out as AV-Sir shook his hand with a wistful smile.

—————

“Shit!”

Arjun didn’t bother to look up from his phone that he was trying to work desperately. Where the hell was AV-Sir? “NK-Sir, don’t swear like girls – it doesn’t suit you. And tell me where Arnav Bhaiyya is?”

“Forget Arnav Bhaiyya.”

Arjun’s brows narrowed as he heard NK-Sir’s distracted whisper. “Did you just say forget Bhaiyya? As the co-founder of the AV-club, I don’t think such words are acceptable when uttered by…”  He saw his senior’s mouth open and close several times even as he followed NK-Sir’s gaze. And then he saw what had taken NK-Sir’s breath away.

Kaveri.

She looked…different…Goodness – she looked…pretty – despite those large black frames that covered half her face and all of her eyes. She looked…Arjun swallowed…and then took a deep breath before turning to look at NK-Sir who was still staring at Kavi like he couldn’t believe what he was seeing. It usually amused Arjun to no-end to see NK-Sir this smitten with her. And NK-Sir’s reactions to her usually didn’t scare him like…”She is not trained in classical music, remember? Not your type. Don’t stare and don’t even think about it.”

Nishant Kumar Pathak turned to look at Arjun curiously. “You said she is just a friend.”

“And so she is. For now.” Arjun replied wryly. “Okay, if you see AV-Sir, tell him I have my phone on me in case he needs anything. I’ll see you later.” Saying so, he began walking away from NK-Sir to where Kaveri was standing – lost like she almost always seemed in large crowds. He smiled as his pulse picked up pace and jingled like her large jhumkas were against her cheeks as she looked around her – in an effort to spot him, most likely. It pleased him and lifted his spirits like it always did to know that he seemed to anchor her in this place.

“Kavi, here you are!” He said as he walked up to her and saw her jump slightly at his voice. Trust Kaveri Gupta to be startled amidst a noisy crowd. For all her vehement dismissal and wry, borderline cynical response to most things around her, she was quite the dramatic Bollywood heroine in her reactions. The best part, of course, was how oblivious she seemed to be of this facet of her own personality.

She looked at him and for a second, Arjun was sure she was checking him out – an altogether pleasant thought if there was one. “You look nice!” She said softly as he neared her, confirming his doubts. This was officially the first time she had ever said anything nice about how anyone looked – and she had said it to him! Perhaps there was no need to be nervous about today, after all.  Perhaps, he didn’t really need to have asked AV-Sir to….No, he couldn’t go down that path. That decision was made. And it was harmless really. A bunch of songs – suited to her likes…Even if he wasn’t planning to ask her out, getting someone to sing her favorite songs, was hardly a crime.

So he breathed in and grinned at her. “So do you!” That was an understatement. It was not just that she looked nice. She did have a pleasing face anyway. It was that she seemed to have made an effort to dress up. It was a blessing she didn’t do that more often. All of IE-V Mech would go bonkers if she did. And in a way that would completely throw her off balance.

 “This looks like everything is in order. All on time.” She said sarcastically, a minute later as she waved her hand around.

“What’s a college event without chaos?” He quipped. Yeah, this was better. The cynical lift of her brow. Now she was more the person he was falling in love with….Sheesh – love? He was losing his mind.  “I love this!” He said and then cursed himself for using that word so loosely.

Kaveri shook her head and looked around her, her eyes alive in incredulous wonder. And then he saw her lashes flicker as her half-hidden irises moved left and right, as if searching for someone.

It hit him like a punch in the plexus. AV-Sir. She was looking for him. He was sure of it.

“Did you take a look at the program?” He interrupted, “You go after…” He peered into the small booklet she was now holding open. “Haan, you go after Rohan and Farha for Pyaar Hua…. I think that is right in the middle of the program. Then we have Iss Deewane…towards the end of the program. And then finally of course, there is AV-Sir’s session. But that would be only after nine.”

“How did I end up agreeing to singing so much?”

She whispered shortly after she took a deep breath and Arjun’s suspicions worsened. Shit! He had made a mistake! He needed to go tell AV-Sir – what…that he thought she did have feelings for him? That Arjun didn’t want him to sing the new list of songs he had come up with? And just why was he suddenly so jittery? It had to be because of how she looked. She looked so different – not like his Kavi. And she wasn’t even his Kavi. Yet.

“I have to run now.” He said and took a step away from her. He was just nervous. He needed a few moment to pull himself together. That was all there was to it.

“I thought you were the pre-program coordinator. Shouldn’t the logistics and operations volunteers take over now?”

His heart leaped hopefully. So he did his thing – shrugged and smirked like he always did around her. “What can I say? They can’t seem to do without me!”

He saw her roll her eyes even as he waved out to her and turned to walk away, his heart still hammering in his ribcage.

———-

She sang like a dream – that was a given. But with the spotlight glinting off her dupatta and her telltale nervous gesture pushing her thick black frames up her nose, it was all he could do to take deep breaths and hold himself back from pulling her into a hug at the end of the performance.

“You smashed it, Kavi.” He said even as he absent-mindedly patted her back and then curled his fingers into his palm. Touching her was a bad idea. Especially because his fingers met the wide expanse of skin on her back, exposed like it had never been before. Thankfully, he wasn’t a creep and she trusted him enough to know that he wouldn’t abuse the freedom she seemed to have bestowed on him and him alone.

She smiled at him but her eyes remained blank. And that gaze – he knew that gaze. It was the same look she had the first time she had auditioned with this song. She had been looking for AV-Sir’s approval then too.

“Where is he?”

The words plunged through his skin, sharp and bitter. Enough to make him fake ignorance when he knew exactly who she was referring to. “Who?”

 “AV Sir.” She replied almost too cautiously.

He had no clue. If anything, he was searching for the man himself. But something, some uncontrollable force in his head, the same that couldn’t stop staring at her, forced him to lie.  “He was here just a few minutes ago. Why?”

He was abashed by his own pettiness as she suddenly turned around and scanned the crowds as if she expected to see him. What was this lie going to solve, he wondered? What was he hoping to achieve by pretending that AV-Sir was around, just invisible to her?

“I haven’t seen him at all this evening and I just wanted to check if there were any last minute changes.”

Annoyance sliced through him again. “Whatever you need to discuss with AV-Sir, Kavi, we can deal with later. We need to get this song done first. Dammit, how did you manage to sing even once? I am dying of nerves here.” He was overstating facts, of course. He was dying of nerves yes, but they had nothing to do with the song they were about to perform.

“You are dying of nerves?”

Arjun didn’t look up from the piece of paper he was holidng. He couldn’t risk her seeing the look in his eyes. She would see through him. Even though, the feeling that she didn’t really didn’t see him when she looked at him, was one he had contended with rather often since that first day they had met in class. “Haseeno se keh do kahin aur jaayein….” He muttered the lines under his breath. , ignoring the rush of self-deprecation that rang loud in his ears.

“I thought nervousness was for sissies” She pointed out

This time he looked up as her pointed barb tugged at his lips. “I didn’t say that?” He smiled sheepishly at her.

“You did.” She replied plainly and then shook her head. “This is insane. This song is going to be…so embarrassing. Why…why did I ever agree to sing this?”

“Embarassing? No way – this is going to be epic. If there is no whistling – call me Karan starting tomorrow, okay?”

He watched as her brows knit together in “Karan?” She shook her head. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“You are losing your touch, KK Gupta. You know how they say mark my words or Nnaam badal dena…you know how it goes…and I am Arjun – Karan Arjun…” He shrugged and shook his head in childish annoyance. “This explanation giving is killing my master word play attempt, Kav”

“What? I don’t even know what to say anymore, Arjun. And just so you know…talking about whistling as a response to the song…is not helping.”

“Stop it, Kavi. I need to memorize these lines again. I don’t want to look like an idiot on stage.”

“You don’t…?” She began before throwing her hands up in the air. “I am the one who…never mind…let’s just get this over with. I am so done with all of this Aarohan business….I mean I am done. Done!” She muttered.

“Are you nervous or irritated, by the way?” Arjun quipped, his eyes fixed on her face. He needed to know. He already did. He needed confirmation. “Because I saw nervousness the last time. Now you just look cranky.”

She shrugged and looked away but not before he saw the pale rose of her cheeks heighten under the soft halogen lights above them. He wanted to hold her hand and ask for forgiveness even though he wasn’t sure what he would be apologizing for. “Kavi, okay I am sorry I am being annoying.  But this is a fun song. We need to…Stop worrying if this is embarrassing. So there will be whistling…” He raised his hand to stop her when she began to interrupt him. “There will be – and that’s a great thing. This is supposed to be one of those evenings. And you really have to stop over thinking everything. You are going to be a hit today. The song you sung earlier was phenomenal, this one will be amazing and with AV Sir – if you are not crowned Queen of Aarohan at the end of this….” He paused dramatically, “Call me Karan starting tomorrow – okay?”

As he waited for a sharp slap on his shoulder or a flash of her inky eyes, Kaveri Khushi Gupta burst out laughing. And just like that his heart leaped up in hope again. He could make her laugh. Surely she wanted that in a partner? Even if he wasn’t a mysterious, guitar bearing senior who was so easy to fall in love with. “See that is so much better!” Arjun quipped as he gave her a thump on her back, making her cough as tears spilled out of her eyes and laughter ebbed.

“Let’s go sing,” She said with a dramatic sigh and Arjun Agarwal held out his hand – one she took with an open smile and no hesitation.

———–

If everyone around them could see how wonderful they were together, there must be something. How could she not feel it when he held her hand? He couldn’t take his eyes off her even as she blushed under the catcalls and claps from the audience.

He couldn’t take his eyes off her even as she walked away from the stage to hide in the shadows like she always did. Why couldn’t she see how she glowed under the arclights?

“Arjun,”

He turned around to look at AV-Sir standing right behind him, his eyes smiling softly at him even as his shoulders remained stiff and unyielding.

“Goodness, AV-Sir. Where were you? I’m just so….this is not going to work at all. I really think we should cancel….”

“You guys were great. Really.”

Arjun shook his head. “No really, AV-Sir – I think we should just stick to your original list.”

“Arjun,” He interrupted again, his voice firm and no non-sense. Perhaps even a little sad. “You know how NK always says she holds back when she is singing. She didn’t today – not for this song.”

Arjun stared at his senior and allowed his words to playback in his head. What he was saying really was that it was worth a shot – what he had decided he would do. And afterall the songs were just one part of the whole thing. He was going to tell her how he felt. THAT was the real deal.

“You are right. Of course, you are right.”

AV-Sir smiled and nodded. “Go get her.”

————-

“Kavi, it’s almost time for…”

“Arjun, where is AV-Sir?” She interrupted him even before he could finish his statement. But fresh from AV-Sir’s encouragement, Arjun refused to be worried.

You still didn’t see him? I just…” He turned around and looked over to the opposite side of the stage which was now swathed in darkness. “He just congratulated me on our performance. He thought it was the best of the evening. Really…” AV-Sir was trying his best to give him the space he needed, he realized. And that he didn’t quite believe that Kaveri felt nothing for him. One way or the other, he knew he needed to do what he wanted to. “Anyway, I was coming over to tell you that AV-Sir wants you to wait before you join him on stage. There is a little change of plan. He wants to do a few songs…”

“If he doesn’t need me to sing, believe me I am more than happy to oblige. It is pretty late…” She quipped tersely even as she glanced at her watch.

“What?”  Arjun asked, bending slightly to scan her face. Whatever it was he was expecting her to say, it wasn’t this. She looked out of sorts. “What has gotten into you today, Kaveri? I thought your bad mood was all gone after our song – you really seemed to be enjoying yourself earlier and now…” God! He was whining.

“I’m sorry, Arjun..I just…this session with AV-Sir..it is bothering me..We haven’t had proper practice sessions in the last week or so and I haven’t seen him all evening…And now you are saying that there is some change…”

Arjun shook his head and smiled. “Relax, baba. All he said was that there was a slight change.” He lied conveniently. “And he even asked me to apologize to you on his behalf. I am sure he will do that in person after the show as well. There’s just a lot going on in the background. The Final Year batch had negotiated a stall with Kingfisher…”

“Kingfisher? Why would they…” She began when it seemed to suddenly dawn on her. “Beer? Kaveri asked, her eyes wide in her face.

Arjun nodded. “It was all done and then suddenly the University Student Affairs Dean’s office withdrew permission for alcohol on campus. Big ruckus outside. AV-Sir is apparently on the Student Management Council and was called there…It’s all sorted…They finally have permission – apparently just for a couple of hours after the program has ended…so…”

Kaveri rolled her eyes.

“Yeah I know you are not impressed but imagine what a dry Aarohan would have meant?”

“Safety?” She volunteered. “Appropriate for an educational institution? Sensible decision?”

“Not fun.” Arjun replied just as wryly.

“Whatever,” She shrugged. “So what do I…”

Her statement was interrupted by the sudden black out followed by a sharp dip in noise levels – just to make way for the timbre of AV-Sir’s guitar.

Main yahaan hoon, Arjun realized – a song that brought Kaveri’s absolute favorites together – actor and singer. They had picked it and argued endlessly about Arjun’s insistence on AV-Sir opening with it. “Some songs are best sung only if meant,” AV-Sir had argued but had eventually given in.

It was a good call, evidently, Arjun concluded with a smile as he watched Kaveri’s face come alive like he had imagined. And then AV-Sir turned, lights blazing over his head in a halo and looked straight at them. Arjun grinned and raised a thumbs up at him even as he smiled and looked away, plunging right back into the song. “There’s a way to make an entrance!” Arjun said loudly, clapping Kaveri’s back without thought yet again.

 

River Song, Music and Lyrics

Song Title: Main Hoon Na

Album: Main Hoon Na

Singers: Sonu Nigam, Shreya Ghoshal

Music: Anu Malik

Lyrics: Javed Akhtar

 

Kiska hai yeh tumko intezaar

Main hoon na?

Dekh lo idhar toh, ek baar

Main hoon na

Khamosh kyun ho? Jo bhi kehna hai kaho

Dil chaahe jitna, pyaar utna maang lo

Tumko milega, utna pyaar

Main hoon na!

 

Note:

  1. Next update may be delayed. Please bear with me. Will post a note on the Index page if so
  2. Thank you all for reading!

342 thoughts on “Chapter Twenty Three (III): Changing Hearts, Changing Minds

  1. Oh my !!!!!! one girl and all these boys after her, one is pining,another is setting up someone and the third one is totally in awe and the poor girl not knowing all this is having her eyes on only one……poor khushi.

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  2. I feel so sad for Arjun. His mind knows what he doubts is right about Khushi’s feeling for Arnav but his heart is still not ready to accept the truth. This confusion is killing him.
    But for sake of his friendship he is putting smile on his face. I just want to hug all three of them.
    All this time Khushi was thinking she is not good enough and here all boys are going crazy for her. Just in case if she knew about all their thoughts then what would be her thoughts.
    Arnav is trying his best too not get effected when all what wants is to go and confess his feeling to her.
    You are making all of us so emotional 😢
    Marvellous update Meera

    Archna

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  3. Never ever missed an update.. will b waiting for Tuesday.. my time.. couldnt even open the update here..

    Vacation times r always hectic ..
    Ll b back to my den soon..

    Sorry for d delay Meera..

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  4. I want to say I understand – she was young and confused and in love – but that fact that was far from a good friend to Arjun. He was a mere convenience, a shield. She makes him doubt himself – and that’s never a good thing. I think I cried a little when he felt himself wanting to be a little like AV Sir – this gorgeous, wonderful boy – I wouldn’t change a thing about him. Except perhaps the woman he has chosen to fall in love with.

    On the other hand, there’s Khushi. I remember saying this when you posted this in Part 1 – it’s so sad – her inability to believe in the sincerity of his complement when he says she looks lovely. We are conditioned to believe we can’t possibly look appealing to the opposite sex without the perfect weight/complexion/body. Sigh.

    The days leaving up to Aarohan and that night – they weren’t a crescendo followed by a free fall for Khushi alone. My heart goes out this boy – in love, scared and excited in equal measure, wanting to believe that his feelings are reciprocated when he probably already knows that they aren’t.

    Toote dil all over the place ya.

    Having said this – both AV and Arjun are playing a dangerous game – they both have an inkling of what’s going on in Khushi’s mind and yet they decide to go ahead with this ridiculous plan. Do they even realise what it might do to her? They’re young alright but not teenagers – how could they not see the damage it can do? Ugghhhh They’re all being selfish at some level, aren’t they?

    I am shipping Nishant Sir and Kaaveri bas.

    Yeh lo mera gaana:

    Is dil mein kaisi beqaraari hai tu kya jaane
    Ulfat ke aage duniya haari hai tu kya jaane
    Yun dil tod dena mohabbat nahi
    Mohabbat hain chaahat tijaarat nahi
    Toote mere is dil mein intaqaam hoga
    Teri wafa teri sada tera payaam hoga
    Dil cheer ke dekh tera hi naam hoga
    Aaj bhari mehafil mein koi badnaam hoga

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    1. I cannot believe you know this song! I cannot believe people remember this song! I need to get inside your head T and access that playlist which keeps churning out these songs! Seene mein jalan there….and Dil cheer ke dekh here! Mind blown! :D

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  5. Hello Meera. AD happened. Moving and all so very busy, and I haven’t replied or commented for a while now. But I make it a point to like your post every time new chapter is posted. Some times I can’t even read right away. But I am here. I am going to be with all of you on this journey to the end. Wanted to let you know. I am blown away by last 3 chapters really. Hats off to you Meera ma

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  6. Finally knowing what was going on all those time feels great!!! But I believe both of these guys are idiots…
    Who asks somebody else to sing for his girl… that too, a person he thinks is his crush’s crush!!!
    And Arnav, why do u have to say YES to Arjun when you clearly feel what might go wrong.. Its just is uneasiness or may be guilt about having some feeling for her….
    These guys are adorable together though!! Now I am just thinking how Khushi might react to this revelation!!!
    Can’t wait…

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  7. Hi there
    New reader alert ..have been catching up on this story
    I have no words …amazing ❤️😀..the entire story is just soo real and all the characters and their emotions just perfect ..loving it totally :)

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  8. okay.. i get most of the story so far.. teenage love.. engineering first year.. so, almost at the cusp of adulthood… and one has image issues (khushi), one has confidence issues (Arjun) and one is purely confused given his situation(Arnav)…
    People are wailing about Khushi taking advantage of Arjun.. hey!! he is no less.. its just that writerji decided to portray him as martyr until now.. but is he really? who chooses to have someone else propose on his behalf.. downright idiotic or not gutsy.. even for an 18-year-old boy… he needs to own up if he wants the girl …

    alright writerji -one thing that has me in knots is, the cassette. So, Arnav suggested Arjun to give a cassette to express his feelings… now the drama man Arjun doesnt want to do it simple.. and he chooses to go with all the plan..
    but, then why did Arnav give a cassette to Khushi… which he later termed as a thank you .(lame AV!!).. ye hajam nahee horaha!! I hope that is not a back-up plan for the singing on the stage stuff.. that would want Khushi to go and give him a tight slap …

    i might sound very bitter towards the boys.. but what they did to her is not excusable.
    she has a right to react the way she wants.. i dont feel sorry for either of the boys..

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    1. That’s the speciality about Meera’s writing. It’s not always about the leads of the story. Here, all three of them are leads of this beautiful story and Meera has again proven her difference being a writer! Because none of her earlier story ( all were fantastic )had felt so real and genuine , who reaches your heart immediately!
      Yes, you were really bitter about Arjun. Agreed,what boys didn’t to khushi is bad but each one of them is right in their own place. Well , choosing about how to propose the girl you like is very personal issue and I hope we are aware about lovebirds and their mad ways of expressing their love. Its not fair to be judgemental about Arjun only because of couple of such sequences when amongst three of them he had been the only one who had been genuine and honest about how he felt where as the other two were just playing and hiding and unconsciously using Arjun as a shield from each other. Not only khushi but AV Sir is equally to be blamed with Arjun’s feelings. Both Arnav and khushi have not right to complain against Arjun or blame him for anything , because his contribution in his respective relationship with both of them is much bigger than their own. I never understood AV Sir’s character so won’t talk about him. But about Khushi I can certainly say she has always been unfair & even unjust with Arjun in their friendship. When she never ever cared for showing her true feelings to Arjun or share her thoughts and feelings with him , then how to blame Arjun when he didn’t thought of approaching khushi directly?? Khushi has always been a secretive person while Arjun has always tried his best to reach her and understand her. He actually accepted her unconditionally !! It’s painful for him to accept khushi and AV Sir’s relationship now because anyone will feel cheated in his place. In last four years khushi or arnav both were fine in their own lives forgetting about the past. It was Arjun who had feelings throughout this period which he let out in river maybe because of insecurity he felt after seeing Arnav again. Why not see khushi in the same way u see Arjun when she also took a chance when she thought what was not available to her before in college is possible now and she and arnav took the chance! Was Arnav fair in getting into a relationship with khushi again when he knew about Arjun ‘s feelings already and Arjun was also present in river. He actually owes a lot to Arjun a lot!! If khushi didn’t deserve to be treated like this by both of them then surely Arjun didn’t deserve to be literally cheated by Arnav and khushi!!

      He is the one who will lose..so I felt for him strongly!!

      I am sorry too if I felt bitter!!!

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        1. The ambiance she has created in her blog, where the readers speak their mind, fall in and out of camps each week without reprimand or Meera taking sides- makes you want to remain part of this river journey. Both she and the story is addictive.

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  9. Just saw the news… Hope you all are fine Meera.. All prayers for cyclone struck people… I hope you and your family are safe…
    Please leave a message if possible 😘

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  10. Sorry for commenting so late…..enjoyed reading beautifully written parts of ”Changing Hearts,Changing Minds” …its interesting how you are putting together these pieces from past and AN ..through Arjun’s POV …want to know AV’s side of story too ..eagerly waiting to read next chapter…
    Take care …

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  11. Wow.. this was a surprise, A Good Surprise. i had always expected Arnav’s POV at some point in the story but getting Arjun’s POV and getting an insight into what actually happened all those years ago was refreshing. Although we still do not have complete knowledge of Arnav’s feelings, this was great.
    Thank you once again for providing us with such a wonderful story and beautifully sketched characters.

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  12. Long long overdue.. But finally everything is peaceful in AD n I can catch up relaxedly!!
    Thank u very much for the bay dedication M. 😘
    The boyish enthusiasm n the steady yet mixed feelings of Arjun for Khushi was a treat to read. Arjun from time to time sensed that kavi had feelings for AV sir, yet suppressed them for his own benefit. Arnav himself seemed very indecisive. Confusion let mung large in both their heads yet went ahead with the adreline filed plan damnig the consequences. Yah right!!

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  13. Loved this update and Arjun a lot more. Can’t say anymore that he doesn’t more than like her. He feels a lot more than a friend does and I feel sorry for him at present when Khushi has not agreed for the proposal. Almost sad for his heartbreak. Although the idea of letting someone else sing for you, Padosan style, seems harmless but not when Kishore Kumar also has feelings for Saira Bano. Sunil Dutt himself will become the side cast. Khushi lives music and the fact he is trying to woo her with that is so correct and at the mark, but then the singer matters! They have really jumbled up in a big mess. He sees through Kavi and had almost decided against it, don’t know what made AV Sir force him,in some way, to let it happen and go ahead with the creepy plan.
    “I don’t know how else to tell you that I have no feelings for your Kavi, Arjun – If that’s what you are asking. One can be uncomfortable being a playback singer for the hero without feeling romantically for the heroine.” Did he really say that just for his sake with a sting in his voice. He was definitely hurting somewhere whenever Arjun came up with his plans to woo Khushi, but not in a position to even stop him nor get aloof from this. There was sadness in his voice when he asked Arjun to go ahead with the plan, maybe because he somewhere wanted to sing those songs for her himself, without letting her know that he sang for himself and not Arjun actually , because surely Arjun was going to tell her about his feelings later after Aarohan. I remember Arjun feeling so surprised seeing AV Sir singing as if saying his own feelings. And in the course of singing Arnav realising what’s there in his heart for Kavi. This is smile fabulous!
    I feel so sorry now that I couldn’t read along the update time. Missed so many theories and talks with the River girls here! 😌 Hope to be available for the future updates. 😁

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  14. Wow Khushi was one lucky girl. All those guys after her Arjun the BF , college clown , and a stud, NK who shares her love for music despite the fact that she has not had any professional training , Tiwari the college lout lusting after her
    now discreetly because of Arnav warning, and of course our very own Arnav – who has it all or so it looks.
    she had to have something special about her , maybe what was called oomph :))

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  15. There are lot of admires for Khushi but her eyes seeks only for one. “Where is he” said it all.
    Arnav felt wrong & awkward to put in the position he didn’t feel comfortable with the plan. He felt for Khushi but didn’t want to own it. Here is Arjun pushing him to help him out wasn’t working to defused what his heart desires…too much going in his life. He is trying his best to make room for Arjun and his love but have backfired in the past as well as present.
    Arjun picked the songs to professed his love for Khushi & asking Arvan to sing songs…well that was no…no. This will only create messey situation. Everyone knows around them his feelings for Khushi…only person who was be unknown was Khushi herself…never on her radar.
    Lying & deceiving can go so far. Let’s see how story unfolds.

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  16. Awww Arjun, the confused romantic fool! Y??
    He saw all the signs, had all the niggling doubts but instrumental set the ball rolling to lead to the emotional wreckage they r in currently!
    Rightly said.. only fools rush in…. :-(

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  17. Guys are really idiotic…who will ask another boy to sing a song for the girl he loves that too by a boy who his girl had a crush….I am totally feeling bad….in their secret planning it’s khushi’s heart got broken

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  18. Feeling so sad for Khushi.. for Arjun n Arnav ..
    Arjun never ever could break her herat but he did..
    Why didn’t he realize that Khushi will see the obvious only..
    How could he expect from her to accept his confession(which never came though)while she was harboring feelings for someone else..

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  19. Stupid Arjun made Arnav sing on his behalf , that is dumb even for a 18 yr old, whereas girl with low self esteem has a crush on the guitar playing senior ?
    The songs / duets sang with emotion acted as a catalyst that brought them together , wrong at all levels, given that Arnav was taken & kh didn’t know if he has feelings for her
    Panjum, neruppum kind of analogy
    Reminded of a comedy scene , set in a college hostel , in a regional movie .
    Vivek & vaiyapuri are hosting the latter s uncle & mora ponnu ( would be)
    Vaiya doesn’t want to blow his own trumpet , asks Vivek to list his fine qualities, while vaiya stares at the girl all shy & tongue tied
    The girl cooly selects the talkative , witty,communicative Vivek over her mora paiyyan
    In the matters of heart & life , it is better to do our own way however flawed it may be instead of choosing the best / popular way as we are conditioned to believe

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  20. Even I and my cousin used to have big crush on Sonu Nigam ☺️☺️ ok so Arnav had looked at Arjun and not at Khushi as she thought! Makes sense… plan was good, but what happened at the end? Why didn’t Arjun propose?

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